Freeze and it melts.

It's a SATURDAY! 

 The only decision I need to make is Sleep or DoWhateverIwant. Great not?
Working life, another phase of my life.
I am sitting in Starbucks with him.

He's studying.

I'm blogging.

I wish time could just freeze.
Saturday night. So glad and happy to have spend my weekend with you. 

 Question I got recently after I started work: 
How's your week been so far?

 Work to live, don't live to work. #nuffsaid.
I guess I am still learning to strike a balance between work and personal life. Sometimes I don't get to handle mood swings and I simply felt very unproductive for the day. Work has been invading my personal life, I felt. Sometimes I woke up twice or thrice in the middle of the night, just because I fear I am late for work.
However on a happier note, I've been blessed with friends who make the initiative to make calls and care for me. We are exchanging our different experience in a way but to me I guess I got a lot of boost and motivation from them.
 

Love what you do, do what you love. 

Well, said is easier than done. I admit that this is not really what I wish/want/expected. However, from the day I made this decision to accept and go for this, I knew that I am already stepping out of my comfort zone, by just making such decision. I am not putting any blame on anyone but I felt and feel bad for always complaining. I guess I just need to start to love what I do, do what I love?
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I'm back. Yeah, he's tired so I went off with my half-way typed post.

Today. Wednesday. On my bed. Continue.
Surprise, everything can change in just a min, even a second.
Yeah something happened over the weekend. To be specific, it's Sunday. Great? Monday is blue enough yet the most unwanted incident happens again. Shit just got real.
Do I choose this on my own? Or life circumstances is just beyond my control? Yeah we all have bad days but I guess I've had enough. On and off. I guess I expected too much, perhaps I overly do and I am expecting the world to be fair with me. Joke. I'm probably fooling myself.

Okay. Enough of ranting. 

You wouldn't want to read. 

                                       I guess I just don't make time for the right things. When you stop chasing the wrong things you give the right things a chance to catch you. I doubt if I can really let things go and focus on the right thing. Sometimes it bothers. I need more time, more space, more hobbies, more goals. I've came across an article few months back but yesterday, I read it all over again. Pretty much relate to me. Sounds very random as this post is supposed to be a happy one, a post dedicated to myself reminding how I spent my Saturday night in Starbucks with you, a relaxing one in fact. Didn't expect to be this. Well let me continue the last bit?

 I hope you are good. I hope you got your schedule and your time back. I know it's too much for you. Overloaded in fact. My bad, My fault for causing all these. I am really trying my very best to not disturb you. It's just so hard but as compared to the pressure you have it now,  perhaps it's even more. Let's take a break. For how many days, I don't know. Buzz me if you are bored with studies. A coffee, a supper, a cup of tea, a cake, a getaway, a phone call? Goodnight xx 

Trust me, Trust myself.

I'll tell myself everyday, you're just another silly boy. You're just another ordinary guy.