Self Development

Today, I sit down and think. Despite everything that has happen for the past months, I probably have a lot to be grateful for. I've been take things for granted a little and was too focus on the things I don't have.
I've tendency of wanting more, make complains of what I've lost and felt unhappy.

'Give thanks for a little and you will find a lot'- Hansa Proverb

Yes, I stumble upon many things. I failed in my 'many months on going job hunt'. I failed in so many interviews and I failed in maintaining a relationship. Till today, this moment, I still failed.
I still struggle. Problems are not fixed yet. However, I decided to take a different approach, perspective of thinking today.
It's tough. While I type I still doubt if I really feel that way. Let's just try. I will try.

1) I learned how to survived rejection.
Being rejected after so many interviews severely dent my confidence. I doubt myself, I got rejected emails and calls, even during the interview, one after another and I'm tired. Somehow at the very least I learned from experience? Sometimes I thought that I've displayed but were still turned down, I don't know, I guess I still need time to think and address my own issues. There must be a reason for being turned down, right?
I've been very down for quite sometime and I find it enough. It is difficult, but my brother once told me ' Self Development ya'. Agreed.
I understand that the job market is getting more competitive by days and I definitely accept the fact that my lack of technical understanding of my subject matter affects me. I guess I still need to be brave to make this acceptance with an open mind.

2) In everything, give thanks.
Let us be grateful to people who makes us happy. I've friends who always thought that my life looks fun but trust me, I date many people just to rant. I repeated my story again and again. Some friend absorb and swallow all my shits, just to make me feel less shit. lol
For the friend who was my rock. You know who you are. Seniors who helped. Ex boss who helped. Sometimes I thought that was it. I hate it. I was lost. I do not know what to do. Who to talk. What's next? but you, my friend, didn't. You knew that it's just a matter of chance, a matter of time, and I will find a job somewhere that suits me.
Thank you friend, Thank you seniors, Thank you ex-boss.

3) My family 
Forget injuries, never forget kindness. I guess I've the most understandable family in the world. They knew I was in this difficult position and they did not pressure me. Sometimes I thought that Its already beyond the time limit, I've taken a bit too long for this. It's my problem obviously.
However, they don't question me but gives me a lot of support. They definitely are the circle of strength of love, and the love will always be there.

4) Words and Hugs
 ' Don't compare, things will stuck sometimes, take your time, Its just the right time haven't come, your luck will come soon, everything happens for a reason, Its tough, economy is bad, that's tough so many supply but no demand, it's not hiring period what'
Those are the words many people gave. Thank you for making me feel better. A hug, a word. All the little moments that calms me down and boost me up. Thank you for the tight hug, the pat on the head and shoulder.

Dear Friends, wish me luck
Dear me, stay tough.
Dear Chance, come to me soon.
Dear Luck, I need you all the time.
Dear God, Lead me.

                                                          

'Thank you and Thank you'