Unexpected

Why. Yes why. I asked. 

Wouldn't expect that I'm actually typing this, dedicate to you, and for this purpose.
The complete silence, the most embarrass story of mine and the deepest insecurities, you know it all.
I just, or rather I thought, I was having fun and killing time with a friend. However today when I sit here typing, I realised that I was making memories.

Dear friend, 

Happy Birthday!

生日快乐 

The unexpected one. 

It was only a month but I can't remember how many times I talked like no one, there is no gap in between and laugh till my stomach hurts. I'm not sure if you're one of the friend who would stays or being part of it , but I believe forever friends, with a forever has no end. 

I know I found a special friend. 

Someone who can have the type of conversation I like the most. The priceless deep conversations. 

Someone who convinces you that there is an unlocked door in your heart that you should open it yourself. 

Someone who tells you face to face that he/she will gets you through your hard times, sad times and the confused time. ( It's a gift to know that, free gift! ) 

Someone who changes your thinking/perception by just being part of it 

Someone who tells you to be the authentic self, and be real

Someone who will drives you to wherever you want

Someone who will never judge you, tell you the truth and calm down my fears. 

Someone who wants you to try food you never tried before 

Someone who created many inside jokes 

..and the list goes on and on..

And when you find such a friend, you simply feel complete because there is no need to worry. 

The first unexpected thought and impressions 

Thinking of the very first time, one weiredo just send me a random stuff. The motive, the doubt, the bitchcy and grouchy kind of feel. Seems like there's a lot of bad stuff in between, a lot of questions without answers. Today while I type this, none of that matters right now. It might hurts to look back, but when you look beside, this friend of yours will always be there. It's really amazing two strangers become close friends, close to heart, hard to find. 

When I first met you , 

I honestly didn't know this weiredo can be my close friend 

The unexpected blooms 

We shared pictures. Be it travel picture, quotes, food, my 大宝, conversations. Literally every shits, depends on what we touched upon. The best kind of feeling is you can sit down on a chair, whenever as long as it's not too hot of course, perhaps a drink, most importantly you've got time, and when you leave, you felt that you've the best conversation you've ever had. 

Topics from family to friends, from relationship to love, from studies to career, from dreams to reality, from food to health, whatever you named it we talked about it.

As you know I'm forever out of time with you, but those time spent is definitely something that can't be bought, something that can never be sold. The crap we talk, or the gossip we spilled, the frankness we decided to share, the pointless drama over and over again, I guess the flow just developed 

I am hoping twenty years from now, I'm gonna look back and laugh at the dumbest joke and remember that all these makes the most amazing friendship. 

Reminder from the good quote.

Ideal are not meant to be achieve, you said. 

Problem are meant to be solve, you said. 

Be authentic, be real, you remind. 

We make good times better, hard time easier, we agreed.

True friendship isn't about who comes first or who you've known the longest. It doesn't matter by time. Its about who came and never left, we nod. 

We came to a conclusion that growing up means being honest. About being true, being frank, telling how you feel, what you want, what you need and who you are. 

Its when the process that we should figure out what's worth doing and who's worth being part of the outcome, you said. 

Do not focus too much on something. A person/ a situation could be your compass, not your universe. You said it twice. You sent and you orally mentioned.

Thank you. don't be too touched. yes I remember. or perhaps like you said, I actually choose to remember. Yes I chose. 

When I also remember what I've told..

Don't rush. Let it be. Let it be natural as possible. It'll happen when it's supposed. Trust the process. I remind. 

Don't trust, don't love don't hope too much. That too much can hurt you so much. so many times I mentioned I just can't remember. 

I want to meet myself from someone's else point of you. Thank you for the night. You think so hard but that is definitely my favourite night with you. ( Don't be too happy thanks ) 

Time heals nothing unless you move along with it. Get it ok?

Once you realised you deserve better, letting go will be the best decision ever. You might not understand now but one day you will. 

Someday, you'll be grateful that things didn't work out the way you once wanted them to. What meant to be will always be. There's always a time and place for everything. There is no need to rush. 

Of all the things we've said, it's the thought, the effort, the time we spent, the heart that counts. 

Thank you for the friendship, thank you for being you. 

I appreciate that and I know it's rare. I know I can count on you, and go on you with anything I need. I'm grateful to have a friend like you. 

I'm sorry to make you read so much. It's your day so I decided to roughly note down what came across my mind and how all these happened. 

Sudden, surreal. I know I should hold on and appreciate this friendship. Something that I wouldn't want to lose. The sincerer the words are and the feeling of conversations that is so much more than words. 

Happy Birthday once again. I hope you enjoyed time spent with me and of course, enjoy your big day!! Don't worry, you'll always be the one I trust, don't ever doubt, again. :P 

May you be blessed today and throughout the year with nothing but joy and happiness.

Caz I know happiness is your key *wink*