Little goals

You've to adapt and to fit in the environment, the place, the work, the people and the list goes on. Whatever it is, the starting point is always hard.

There goes my first week of attachment in another firm. I've got bad experience before, no point to look back but I truly hope that I can made a difference, this time. Most importantly, I want to improve, and learn from my mistake. 

Getting the right balance between working and studies again, is another thing I wish I could learn, as the time goes. I am a slow learner, hence, I am hoping and wishing a colleague that is patient enough to repeat, and teach me. 

I hate the fact that I work so slow, I absorb so slow, I move like a tortoise, I made stupid mistakes and I can't remember things well. These moments wasn't good, I felt tired, frustrated. 

Alright, stay positive. It takes time. Rather than thinking am I suitable to work in this place, why not think hard how to improve and gets better instead? One of my friend replied after I rant to her about my day.

Thankfully, friends like them are always giving me positive energy and let me understand the law of attraction. I often dragged by the negative thoughts, eventually the little goals and fire I have in me gone. Not only that, I have friends who can give perfectly good advice because they are just sitting in my shoe, going through the same situation as me.

Over the weekend, I skyped with my close friend who use to sit beside me in class when we were both doing CLP last year. Sitting in class from 10am-7pm was too long but now, we appreciate and enjoy being a student, only when we came out to face the outside world.

Also, we talked bout the differences between colleague and friends. To strike a balance between these two will takes time, and some of us thought that colleague can never replace a natural friends. What do you think? I agreed that the world is full of bad people, but there is also many good one. Again I guess it needs time to understand, and to find a person who understands. 

As a fresh graduate, as a newbie in a company, I guess it's time to learn not to fear failure, fear of the unknown, fear of tomorrow. Sometimes I see tasks through the lens of past experience and it often pulls me down, thinking that I might have fall again, without even giving myself a second chance, to try and to keep going. 

Starting is always the hardest, but I believe there is a better tomorrow. Like I said to you, let's fight together. Pray to the Lord, He is always there with us, guiding us to the right path.

Good luck to me, and to all my friends. 

xx