E.M.O

Ya mayb p-m-s. I'm getting very fraustrated nowadays. I wake up to feeling blessed bt somehow there will be people that ruined your day wtf. I couldn't take it at this period because I've a lot of things for me to deal with so I wanted to write it down to feel good. If you're in a good mood I would advice you to stop reading because this post is basically very emotional and is a very dissapointing story.  Who do you think I am? Yes an idiot who is willing and so easily caught in your trap. I'm just so inncoent and feeling happy initially thinking that you remembered me caz you asked me: hey how are you? Yes I often feel warm to have these three words in my phone popping out because it simply indicates that someone cares and remembers you. & I don't mind replying long msg to show that I care and I'm doing good, thank him/her for dropping by after sometime.  I'm studying and I stopped because of you. We're not so close bt we are still friends. I'm happy that you actually drop me a message felt so warm. Bt why? You simply makes me feel that you're using me. Thats it. Everytime you find me for a reason and I'm fine because I will be able to help; why not? I thought that we're still friends, a friend that is not so close but still real, still true, still innocent. This time you just disappoint me by saying so much and at the end you just want smtg from me. Fine But why can't you just say thanks after that? I might sound very cocky or being too fussy, I'm really sorry for that. For that moment it really hits me, hurts me. Tell me so many things and waited for me to send over a doc that you needed and thats it? Lol this is just too obvious my friend. I rather you asked for that in ur first sentence because I don't want to waste so much time talking and wondering if you're so nice or real to talk to me. I hate this feeling. If I were you, I might as well ask from others. Or maybe my face is just too thin and yours are thick enough to ask for this. I hope you understand my feeling. I don't think you felt it because you've done it to me for too many times. Or you just need that doc very much. I was very happy that day caz you gave me chocolate, that little things that makes me happy but turn around you did this to me. Am I thinking too much or what?
I'm sorry because we're no longer close friend last year back then even we are in the same land. I'm sorry for what I've did bt the circumstancial factor and different lifestyle tear us apart. For so many reason I believe that we are just not close friends bt we are still good friends. And you just ruined this relationship. What more do you expect from me?
Please be considerate, friend.
I'm feeling- very very sad for this.